"I remember not being able to move my arms and legs," Tracy said. The suspects told police Tracy vomited in the restroom, asked to be left alone and said "No," at different points of what she described as a seven-hour ordeal.
Tracy remembered waking up with someone pouring alcohol down her throat.
And while it's the practice of The Oregonian to not name victims of alleged sexual assault, Tracy insisted she be identified here.
At one point, she said she begged one of the men to make it stop. She has never before been identified as the victim and has never before talked publicly about it. • • • Brenda Tracy worked in Keizer as a waitress at Bray's Family Restaurant in 1998.
She stood 5-foot-10, weighed 140 pounds and had shoulder-length hair.
She was 24, a single mother to two boys, ages 4 and 5, and she said, "I had victim written all over me." Tracy said she was sexually abused as a minor, up until age 5 by a family member, then again at 9 by a neighbor.
She has not talked publicly about the earlier incidents.
"That it's OK to take up space, that I'm not garbage." As a young woman she found herself in abusive relationships, a partner to men who were volatile, angry and dangerous. She remembers wearing a turtleneck in the summer once to cover bruising on her neck after being choked by a boyfriend. "I didn't think I was worth anyone really loving me." Tracy sees herself so clearly now. 98-06590 of the Corvallis Police Department spanned 28 pages.
The father of her children was incarcerated, first for drugs, then a Measure 11 sentence for robbery. In fact, in September when that terrible video of NFL running back Ray Rice's elevator assault went viral, Tracy watched in horror, just like you and me. It detailed the events of the early morning hours of June 24, 1998. We met downtown over coffee on a weekday morning a couple months ago.And I was struck that nobody in the passing parade of briefcases, lattes and workday stares appeared to notice the 40-year-old as she adjusted her ponytail, wiped the tears and unloaded a story that she's carried like a bag of bricks for years.Also identified as suspects were an 18-year-old Southern California high school football recruit named Michael Ainsworth and Nakia "Ken" Ware, a 23-year-old community college defensive back who was on probation for armed robbery in California.None of the four suspects interviewed asked for legal representation. The four suspects pointed fingers at each other to various degrees.She said her clothes were strewn around the room, she was assaulted with a flashlight, and with their fingers, and someone put ice on her groin.