Everything goes through your mind, every possible emotion.' Calderon lost about 15 pounds during his 12 Survivor days, though he put the weight back on—plus some—once he was voted off.
After being eliminated, Calderon said he, 'started eating like food was going out of business, like there's going to be no more food left on earth because that's the way you kind of felt when you were out there.' Calderon's road to the Cook Islands started literally out of the blue in Hollywood, Calif., after breakfast one day with some friends.
Plus, people's feelings and popularity come into play.
I think some of the women saw me as a little over-assertive and too dominant.
' They're really smart about [ the interview process ] .
They give you just enough information that you need to know, but not anymore than that.
' I was getting to a point in life where I was just hating the lies, and thus got very depressed and angry because I was wasting so many years of my life and just couldn't be me,' said Calderon, who says he is a mama's boy.
' I was at a point that I wanted to be out; I just didn't know how to come out.' He first came out to his close friends, and all accepted him. I was just really, really insecure.' HE' S A SURVIVOR John Paul Calderon is the second son of Edwin and Xinia. His mom died in 1984, when he was 9, and his dad, then-divorced from Xinia, came back into his life full-time, so to speak. His family and college teammates usually just call him Johnny. P., thanks to his run—albeit a short one—a year ago on Survivor.
He had blood work done, medical exams and extensive background checks.
He eventually met all of the show's higher-ups, including Mark Burnett.
He confirmed his sexuality to the world this past February, long after getting voted out of the Survivor tribe. All of my friends, the volleyball world, absolutely everybody has been supportive. ' Some of my friends even joked, ' It's about time; we've known for the longest time.' ' I've gotten so many letters saying how much of an inspiration it was that I came out. He was the fourth voted off the Cook Islands, long before many so-called Survivor experts and even some CBS executives predicted.
He revealed he was gay on The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency ( Oxygen Network ) and on a cover story for Instinct magazine. My goal now is to thank everyone else for being so supportive of me. ' Obviously I didn't do as well as I should have,' Calderon said.
Ultimately, she asked if he'd be interested in appearing on Survivor.